ALL ALONE

I'm looking for you
Where are you...?
Strange! You were here
Only a moment ago
Now you've gone
But, how can that be?
You're sitting right here beside me
In fact, I can touch you
Look straight at you
But, you're looking out the window
At some other plane
Very reluctantly
I begin to resolve
I must swallow my pride
Hide my tears
Resign myself
Whatever the consequences
Just step aside
And accept -
Accept
That, you're nowhere near me
I'm sitting here all alone.

            WHAT...?

I saw you yesterday
Don't look so surprised
I know, in order to avoid me
You live in another County
For a long time after we broke up
I never saw a thing
Save you
In fact
You were in my every thought
My every deed
Then suddenly
Or -  do I mean gradually....?
I'm not sure, which....!
Things feel so hazy
You were lost to me
Completely
And now when I look at you
Standing here before me
I rack my brains
Trying to think
What the hell did I ever see in him
What?
All those tears I shed
And all those times I wished I was  dead
I must have looked like a right old twerp
In everyones eyes
O God!
Falling apart because of this jerk
What, for God's sake did I see in him
Please tell me
WHAT??!!