J. M. Culver, Poet — Saint Paul MN
 

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J. M. Culver is a fine artist with a BFA in Painting from the Minneapolis College of Art and
Design. She works in a variety of media, including writing, painting, drawing, and sculpture. She works full-time in her art studio at home and frequently exhibit her artwork. She plans to pursue her MFA in the near future and would like to eventually own an art gallery to show her work as well as other emerging artists' work.

           Faded Memory

Cruelly you kissed me, taunted
with wet matted eyelashes
a jagged smile
all my senses alive with what was numb
rather not feel anything
like this again
take it away and bury it deep
until I can't breathe
until I drown in thoughts
that arise from feelings I cannot control

When the world stops, spins, and turns
around again
paintings of you are burned inside
my eyelids
pull the shades down and nothing remains
but the dizzy thoughts and touch
of a faded memory

               Inadequacy

Plagued with feelings of inadequacy
of never getting the words quite right
thoughts, visions, and words tangled
to constantly be misunderstood
fragmented and projected behind
forever frozen in the wrong time
the wrong place, the wrong words, the wrong thoughts
silenced and unwanted, unheard

Plagued with feelings of separation anxiety
of being left behind and erased in the wind
memories and words all blurred together
to never be as one again
pushed down, pulled up, pushed down
forever scraped against the floor
the last place, the last words, the last thoughts
nothing left, wanted no more.